Constant Cravings

Hello out there!  No, I am not dead.  I'm not really sure what happened, I just became uninspired for a while there.  I am the type person who is either overwhelmed with the number of ideas, to the point of not acting on them at all......or psycho crazy with working on so many ideas at once that I don't complete anything.  I know that about me and will admit it.  So I just went through a "not acting on them" phase....sorta.

See there I am, alive and kicking.

But actually I do know why.  I am crazy, that is why.  As crazy as my life may look with all the projects I have going on, I love order.  I may be a bit of a hoarder of supplies, ideas and plans, but I hoard them until I can bring some sort of order to them.  And sometimes, all my frantic movement reverts to inaction when I don't have the order I crave.  Did that sound poetic?  Well, let me tell you, inaction on the outside does NOT mean inaction on the inside (my head, that is).  Chaos around me festers in there and I am READY TO POP!  Can I get an amen?

So usually, I need a catalyst to bring order back to my life.  To get me moving again.  You may have seen some of that through my posts....my mom visiting got me on track with some of the home projects, my clothing challenge got me on track with my fabric hoard, my list of ideas for sewing projects at least got those idea out of my head and on paper.....more on that later.  Well what I have now for a catalyst is school starting.

Am I prepared?  Heck no.  It is Thursday night and my kids start a new school on Monday (just built across the street).   And here is what my house looks like:

Random piles of crap everywhere!

Camp Lunch Central, most of which will not work for school lunches because of the nuts!  And why does it all live on the counter?

Crockpot that was never put away, cords galore because there is no drawer to hide them and no other easily accessible plug in.

The dumping ground for all that enters the house.  New school clothes?  Still sitting in that bag, waiting for a home in a closet full of stained camp clothes.  I guess they will walk themselves up the stairs and hang themselves.  And those class bowls?  Another bright idea that hasn't taken off because I've been fretting so much over the clutter.

More crap that never made it up the stairs.....and don't think I am blaming my family, as you can see, I am just as guilty.  Those are MY shoes.

And what is that lonely crate?  An honest attempt at helping that craving for organization coming out.  Too bad it came out at the end of the school year and that crate has been sitting there ALL summer.  I am ashamed.

More clutter, with no home.  Yeah, any empty purse from a purse swap out, still living in the dining room.

Well at least the bills are stacked in one place.....

Only because they wouldn't fit in with the other pile that needs to be filed.  Nice addition to the room, huh?

I know, I know.  I can hear you now, it is really not that bad.  A little clutter never killed anyone.  But that is the kind of thing that drives me crazy!  I HAVE to get organized!

So why not just grab a pile and put it away?  If it were only that easy.  Like I said, the new school clothes need to be put away, but I don't want to do that until I have a chance to clean out the old clothes from camp.  The shoes need to go in my closet but it is a mess right now so why add to it.  The papers need to be filed but I need to set up a new filing system first.  The cords need to be contained but I have to figure out a decorative way to store them because I don't have a free drawer.  Do you see a running them here?  Me too.

I am driving myself crazy with this.  This is where the overplanner, procrastinator comes out in me. Oh, I'll hit this mess like a whirlwind once I get going, I actually plan to stay up tonight taking care of business.....like I said, I only have this weekend to get ready and this little bit of clutter is just the tip of the iceburg on me needing to get organized to make school mornings go smoothly.  But WHY oh WHY is it so hard to get going?  I crave the order, plan like crazy for the order, feel great when I get the order, it makes life so much smoother to have the order.......what makes it so hard?

I'd love to hear thoughts on this.  I do get and respond to your private messages and on facebook, but feel free to comment on here if your thoughts might help others.  I assume (hope) that I am not the only looneybin like this.

Anyway, rant over.  More posts to come on how I put some of my overplanning into action to get this mess in shape.  And I have another clothing challenge ready, I just have to....  There is that running theme again!  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!